Saturday, April 9, 2011

all.grown.up!

Today I grew up...I graduated college!
It was crazy, I had so many different emotions running through me as I sat next to my friends and looked around the BYUI-Center for the last time.
Last night I had my Convocation ceremony where I walked with the Business & Communication colleges. I was nervous to walk on and off stage, affraid that my heals would get caught on the stair and I would face-plant and make a great end to my college career...at least I would leave some sort of a legacy, right? I was nervous to be in front of so many people, and to shake the president's hand as well as some of my favorite teachers. But as I looked up at my amazing and supportive family, my parents and 3 little sisters and my adorable husband, I felt a sense of peace come over me because I knew that no matter what, they were proud of me, my own little groupies. At the end of the ceremony I saw my dad and my husband sitting together, both giving me huge smiles and a thumbs up. I have never felt so much love before. I knew that they were both 100% proud of me. It was a great feeling.
I know it is just a blog but I want to publicly thank my parents for all their love and support through the years. They have taught me to be the responsible adult I am today. I know that I will be successful in this life no matter what comes my way because of the things they have taught me. I love my grandma! She has been so supportive while I have been in college. She has let me and my friends come stay at her house numerous times, she helped pay my tuition every semester! She is the famous Grandma Bev that all my friends know and love. Thanks to my sisters for always making me smile. Thanks for spending your spring break here in Idaho with me! And finally, thanks to my wonderful hubby who puts up with me and all my craziness/moodiness.
Thanks to my amazing friends who have made college a wonderful experience for me! I am so lucky to have you all in my life! Especially Melissa & Glenna! Thanks for giving me a chance! Thanks for growing up with me and being there for me through everything these past 4 years! I love you and I can't wait to visit you both and go on "girls weekend" trips with you for the rest of our lives!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

unpredictable

Today I returned my books and took my very last final in the testing center. I did well, I got an 88%, I'd say that's pretty good considering everything on it was about different religions such as Taoism, Confucianism, Islam, Judaism, etc. and every vocab word was in a different language!
On my way home from campus I had a weird and unanticipated emotion come over me...I was sad. I realized I would never again be on that campus as a student, most of my friends are leaving and I feel like I didn't take advantage of every opportunity I could have as a college student. Not only that but I'm scared. I don't have a job, I'm just going to be here waiting for Mark to graduate and I don't know what our future holds.
My entire life I have always known what is coming next, kindergarten then 1st grade, all the way up to 12th grade. Then I came to college and had one semester after the other...
But now what?!
I'm so grateful for the wonderful friends I have made here at college and the experiences they have gone through with me. After this week I don't know when I will see them next but I know they will always play a major role in my life. They mean so much to me.
I'm grateful for a loving and supportive family who are proud of me and the things I have accomplished.
This has been a crazy and amazing chapter of my life.
I'm soo glad to be done with test and tedious homework assignments, but it's scary to be on my own now and have to be a real grown up. I still don't know what I want to be when I'm grown up!!!
I'm ready for whatever comes along and know that life has so much to offer me!